Make me evil.

Read Fifi's blog and wow, finally you realized that you're evil, since you're overwhelmed with your own niceness and all! Tee hee.

And, I've thought about it, and I've come up with conclusion that I am a certified nice person. I don't get angry easily, in fact, I think people seldom catch me being furious and all. But when I'm mad, better pray hard, cos you'll see this side of me that you've never seen before. My tongue-lashings can actually do wonders. Sometimes, I'm even scared of the things I say. But you know, it's just impossible for me to be sugar-coated when I'm angry and all. Somehow, people whom I'm angry with are always so lucky in the sense that they're nowhere near whenever I'm mad at them. So I can't exactly lash out at them as soon as possible, while the fuel is still burning. Which reminds me of this one really lucky ex-schoolmate. You'll always be in my shitlist.

Anyways, I've mellowed down a lot now. I used to be really sarcastic and blunt when I was 13 or something. Haha, which reminds me of this song which I really love...

My words are weapons (I use them to crush my opponents)

My words are weapons (I never show no emotions)

My words are weapons (I use them to kill whoevers steppin' to me,my wordsare like weaponry on a record)

Sometimes I hate myself for being super ultra thoughtful and level-headed. Maybe I should just be the old short-tempered me and reprimand anyone when I feel like it. Cos, man, this stupid level-headedness is working to my own disadvantage.

Sorry Firah I can't help it(tried to shut my trap for friendship sake but I can't, I promise I'll try to be polite) so here goes.

Just because I look nonchalant and laid-back doesn't mean you could assume whatever shit about me and think you can get away with it. Cos the thing is, you can't get away with it and you won't get away with it. So, I send forwarded messagES just to make him like me back, and the reason for me doing that is just for fun's sake. What's your motherfucking problem? Do you have some kind of brain defect? Okay, so since when do I bombard him with forwarded messages? Oh, how I hate forwarded messages. And last year, after the both of us were not on talking terms, I actually only sent two messages, one during the exams period and the other during Hari Raya cos I just felt that it was right to apologize in case I have upsetted him in any way. I don't give a shit that he didn't reply back, I mean he can be a pussy all his life, I don't give a damn. But if you see that forwarded message is a way for me to get him to like me back and to lead him on then you're so DEAD WRONG. Your views and assumptions are all screwed up. Firstly, it's just so wrong to assume when you've heard only one party's side of story. Secondly, it's much more wrong when you have already heard both sides of story but still choose to speculate, for whatever reason unknown. And... about me making prank calls and SMSes, oh hey wow, some people know stuffs about me that I don't even know of. This was what hapenned numb nuts. I did not make any prank calls or SMSes. No prank calls were made. The prank SMS was not sent by me. It was also sent without me knowing it. How the fuck did I lead him on then, when I did not even send any prank calls and SMSes. However, I do admit that after his SMS, I did reply back and we had a little chat and that was it. So what? Just cos I had a little chat, I am seen as leading him on? Are you sick in the head? The both of us USED to be friends, and for whatever reasons that only he knows, we drifted apart and now we're barely on talking terms, thank you so much. And dumbasses, I'm not blaming any of you. However, the fact that you assume stuffs about me which is not even true irks me so much. And to think that you are my friends. How upsetting. And so what? Just cos he looks like Mr Nice Guy doesn't make him a saint. Just cos he's sensitive and easily gets his heart-broken doesn't mean I'm the Bad Girl. Why the fuck should I lead him on? Oh, is he the only guy in the world? Just cos I look free-spirited and stuff, doesn't mean I'm the kind who have got nothing better to do but break guys' hearts. What the fuck is wrong with you?! What is so wrong about trying to patch a friendship up? Just cos he used to like me and his love was not reciprocated, even though I still went out with him AS FRIENDS(that's how I see it estupidos!) and he gets upset, doesn't make me the evil one. And here I am trying hard to patch a friendship back. Why be stupid and not talk to each other cos of small matters? Oh man, I think I shall not talk to any other guys anymore, cos that will mean that I am leading them on, and it's so wrong to do that if I have no feelings for them. Azmi, stay away from me.

Yours truthfully (with lotsa love, hugs and kisses to you dumbasses out there, siapa makan cili dia yang terasa pedasnya),

Miss Sugabitch, to you.

p/s: Oh yeah, that entry was not directed to Firah. She told me to shut my trap but sorry Firah, I can't help it. May God bless them.