You make me sick

Some people make me sick, to the guts. Oklaa... I just dislike love declarations, cos it's all so sappy and stuff... I mean it's ok to say that you love another person and all cos love makes the world go round... butttt well you don't have to publicize it... and ok you can go on again about its your goddamn blog, you can write whatever you want and that you didn't ask anyone to read it and stuff... And I hate to repeat this but having a public blog comes with the understanding someone will read it. I mean people have curiosities.... right. So, yea, whatever. Yadda yadda. I'm sick to the gut. Yucks yucks yucks. I thought people grow up but some people are still stuck with this love thing. I mean ok, its inevitable and essential, whatever, but, well if you are old enough, and if you claim you are growing up, you will fully know that sometimes some things are better awaited for, rather than ALWAYS CONSISTENTLY DESPERATELY seeked! So, whatever. I hate to say these kinda things. Cos I'm a nice person, arhh, whatever. I just sneezed. Bless me. Anyways, I WANT A DIGICAM... but I have no money, neither do my mom, but I REALLY REALLY REALLYYYY want it! And you know, sometimes I can be quite impatient and stuff... and when I want something, I want it RIGHT NOW! Yea yea, immature, childish... whatever. Anyways Aslin got one from Sim Lim at only (if my memory doesn't fail me), $169! And it has webcam capabilities plus it can record 1-min movies too... A LOT 1-min movies... I mean what the heck you can use computer software to string all the movies together into 1 whole long videoclip!!! I like these kinda stuffs... so, yea. I want DIGICAM! Anyways, Aslin's digicam's brand is ORITE... Hahaha... orite perrr... And I just read someone's blog and she said she hates writing/talking in Malay. Haha, tak sedar diri. Kalo daa makan belacan, cincalok, sambal tu... jangan nak step makan keju, kentang goreng ah, walaupun aku minattttttt sangatttt kentang goreng... but AKU TAK MALU CAKAP DALAM BAHASA MELAYU... So whatever. Walaupun aku benci kebanyakan mentaliti Melayu yang negatif... tapi aku masih mengaku MELAYU... walaupun kengkadang kalo daa terdesak sangat aku ngaku Cina... tapi takdelaa sampai nak menganak-tirikan atau mengetepikan Bahasa Melayu sendiri. Malahan wa bangga wooo dulu selalu dapat Best in Malay... heheh, eksen lakk aku. Whatever. Oh yes, walaupun aku lover, tapi aku BENCI JESECA ROBERT! Fake siot... hahah, skarang aku daa start cakap Melayu terus... tak kisah ah... Dia cam fake gila sakkk... aku menyampah ah. Aku suka orang honest je, direct... natural. Tak yah nak act chirpy, bubbly suma. Sick aku!!! Dia ingat ni ape? Psychological games ke hape?! Kalo dia act baik, kita leh bagi tumpuan kat kelas dia... pigidah... aku bukan budak umur 3, 4 tahun lagi! Beh cakap orang takde courtesy. Yang dia bongok sangat apehal... orang cuma suh Azura sign pat attendance sheet per... bodoh sak... beh tak usul periksa nak throw tantrum. Geli aku... Setahu aku budak2 kecik je buat perangai, buat sangkak! Dia daa tua-bangka pun nak buat perangai kape? Daalaa pakai suar ketat, kalo pantat gebu takpe... nak kata montok pun tak... menggelebeh je... beh jalan terkedek-kedek cam itik bontot melecet! Kan aku daa kutuk habis-habisan... Menyampah sak orang bengap cam gini. Emo nemo elmo! Cam nak flying kick je kat muka Ogy Ahmad Daud dia... Pantang aku orang cam gini... dahlaa aku ni memang daa dilabel sebagai budak ATTITUDE. Principal lagi panggil aku (aku quote dia satz) "ATTITUDE... WITH CAPITAL LETTERS A.T.T.I.T.U.D.E". Fuuuhhh bangga aku... sampai kembang kuncup lubang idung aku! Tapi pape pun gi JAHANAM NGAN EX-PRINCIPAL BP TU... TAN LAY CHOO!!! Hahahah padan muka kena replace! Tak layak langsung jadi principal. Ada ke principal panggil student ATTITUDE?! Kebenda ntah... ah pasal ah... aku tahu aku memang berperangai dari dulu lagi. Nak wat camne. Aler bagi aku senang je... kalo orang ok ngan aku, aku leh ok jugak... beh kalo orang campur skolah2 skali buat taik... beh nak aku baik2... sudah ah, asal aku layan hal aku, ko layan hal ko dahlaa... Pasal ah results aku bagus ke tak... yang jadi tukang sapu sampah aku, bukan ko per... tak kaco biji kelentit ko per... Kalo jatuhkan standard skolah pun stakat 0.00000000001%. BP SUCKS... SEKOLAH UNTUK BABI2 PARIT! Menyesal aku masuk skolah tu! Daa ah, aku daa come up with the conclusion that kebanyakan ANAK DARA TUA... JANDA... ni suma... ada I.S.S.U.E.S. Serious issues... Kalo issues sendiri affected takpe... nih ngan orang sekeliling skali affected... kebenda jer... Sebab tu aku lagi suka sorang2 buat hal sendiri... tak menyusahkan orang lain. Aku rasa kalo aku duduk sorang2 kat umah dari kecik sampai skarang, gerenti dosa aku tak sebanyak mana cam skarang... bukan nak cakap besar ah tapi kalo aku sorang2 aku tak tahu hal luar, dunia luar... aku takkan mengumpat, mengutuk, belajar benda2 ape sebagainya... hmmm tapi tak leh salahkan orang lain gak... yang salah aku juga... kalo aku tanak tahu-menahu... aku akan tetap pure dan innocent. Tapi serious, aku mendambakan(chey) saat2 dulu... time aku kecik2... bila aku betul2 tak tahu-menahu benda luar. (Interval: Aku daa benar2 jadi TEKNISYEN keluarga, bukan setakat keluarga aku, TAPI JUGA KELUARGA SEBELAH MAK AKU! Teknisyen computer wa cakap lu! Ada baiknyer kalo aku masuk poly... bleh terus aku buat PC DOCTOR NYER FIRM!) Hmm... ntahlaa... aku akan cuba tolong makcik aku... pasal dia pun slalu tolong mak aku... anyways, I heard my cousin's voice tadi... heheheheheee... she is sooooooo cute!!! Aku suka dia... aku suka features dia... she looks shy and all... and she has this sort of dimple on her cheekbone... cam 1 line tu... when she smile... soooo cute... and I love her cute voice... Tapi dia shy gila laa... kalo aku cakap ngan dia, dia senyum jer... anyways... she's like only 5, 6 or something like that... Heehee... cute lakk bila aku pikirkan yang dia baru hidup 5 tahun... like it's such a smalllll number! Heheee... anyways, back to my story... I want to be what Nur'Ashikin bte Baharom used to be back then. Rasa-rasanya, aku jadi hermit pun ada baiknya!