Don't be friends with me. *smug face*

I just woke up, and I'm kind of in a daze. So, I was thinking about how bad a friend I can be. You know, it's like one day I can be the best of friends with you, and the next day, we can be total strangers. This reminds me of one incident in which I totally refuse to acknowledge someone as a friend, cos he/she apparently offended me. I mean, I have high expectations of my friends. I appreciate honesty and frankness but not blatant emotional tongue-lashing. And I especially hate it when someone drag me into a mess that I'm not actually involved in. And I'm not your bloody messenger. It seems like you don't have any respect for me. I have all the right in the world, not to tell you anything, despite we being friends, cos I know that if I tell you whatever you want me to, I can hurt the feelings of another party. And I don't live in this world, just to be a good friend with her knees bent and a tail between her legs. I live to be a good person for everyone else in this world. So why in the world should I conform to your wishes if it's against my principles. Plus, your emotional ramblings make me sick. So much for being my friend! And just like when I didn't tell the other party whatever he/she wanted cos I know it would hurt your feelings, I feel like I'm obliged to be fair and do the same thing to you. If you can't see the good intentions that I have, then that's just too bloody bad.

This is not to say that I don't appreciate the times that we shared in the past. I know that we have spent some great times together, and you have been particularly helpful to me at one point of time. I appreciate everything that you have done for me and I am thankful. It's just that I am offended by the fact that you, as a friend, did not think of my feelings first, before saying whatever you said. Maybe it's cos I had rejected you before, but heck, was I wrong in doing that? Hell no. So, what's your problem?! Bottomline is deal with your jealousy yourself, and please don't drag others into your muddle.

This was initially written to show my appreciation for whatever my ex-friend had done for me in the past. Too bad it turned out a little emotional. But yea. I just can't forget it. I thought we were friends.